Finale! (it's been a sitcom, fo sho)

 Season Finale....I mean, semester final.

Although, season finale seems fitting. I have felt like I've been in a freakin' soap opera with the amount of tears that have been shed. Seriously, I know that I'm a cryer (emotional, anger, etc.), but this semester was a little excessive. Just ever so slightly. I've had a couple rough academic classes this year, and so I feel even more inadequate than before. I know you said Spanish doesn't matter, Trig won't be used, etc. But my grades for sure reflect that. This whole semester has just been me trying to not feel like a complete failure, I think. I have absolutely loved being in Illustration and working with watercolor. And I really want to continue working with this medium so I can get up to a better level. I wasn't able to get where I wanted to be this semester, however, I want to get there. I just want to teach art to high school kids. I want to teach yearbook, maybe photography. I'm already nervous that I won't get a job, simply because I feel completely inferior to everyone in my major. Is that normal? Or am I overdramatic? I like to think I'm pretty level headed, just get worried about stuff. 

ANYWAYS. Things are winding down for the semester. I had 4 finals today. It was rough. I was sleepy. Probs saw my red eyes this mornin'. You probably thought I was high or emotional. With my track record, obviously emotional is the more likely thing. One more final tomorrow.

As far as budgeting goes, I sucked at keeping track of that. I feel that with all the redos and edits, I went COMPLETELY over budget. Also, didn't meet any deadlines. I sucked at making those. I made everything by the deadline today though!!!!

BTW Sorry I didn't blog a lot.

Nine (Drunken Cat)

Society of Illustrators

Book Cover (Great Gatsby)

World Record (Or, as you like to call it, "The Schlong")

PS. Don't come back from Africa looking like this. You'll scare the prospective freshmen. And me.

Seriously though, have a wonderful time in Africa. I'm really happy you get to see your daughter. :) I really appreciate how you handle the students and the way you respect us and work with us where we are at in our skills level. Come back sans malaria please! :)

Hola Profesor Rusty

Hey Rusty

So it's been forever since I've blogged. My bad. :/

I would add more stuff right now but I don't have a lot of my stuff on me. Feeling crummy today. Lady issues. You know how it goes, you have lived with women before. Anyways, freaking out less because the year is almost done. Not because there's less to do but more of the mindset of "Well, there's at least one month where I don't have to feel stupid because of Truman." Is it wrong that I get really annoyed with nearly every aspect of Truman's mission statement? "Learning for the sake of learning"? Um....Yes, I would LOVE to have Trig lower my GPA again just for the sake of losing money on scholarships. Cuz I learned SOOOO much from that course. You know what I learned? Don't take a math class at Truman. Valuable lesson, right there. Anyways.

In reflection of this semester: watercolor is something I can see myself doing just because I like doing it. Who knows? Maybe I'll get better. Hopefully I will. I'll probs be in here to do some work with Lucy before break ends so I can casually paint whenever I feel like it at home. JUST FOR THE FUN OF IT.

Adam's friend is wanting to be in animation. He's working with a "Mentor" program right now. Not really a college, but he's working with people from Pixar and such. Something like that. But He's incredible. Pisses me off because he doesn't have a liberal arts college demanding proficiency in every subject under the sun so therefore he can focus his time on learning animation and working and earning money (clarification, HE doesn't piss me off....Truman's silly thought process does). He's super awesome at what he does, makes me very jealous. Kinda wish I could show you his stuff.

So sleepy. And not feeling well. Rather just sleep off this crummy feeling.

I hope you enjoy your trip to Africa! That's super cool that you're going there. Seriously though, don't ever take a sabbatical.....the whole art department would go up in flames.

Sincerely,
Audra

I'm Late! I'm Late!! For a very important date!!

Hey so this is long overdue. But this is one of my gouache pick outs. I need to blog more, I know! I'll get on that. 

Purty door.

Found a pretty picture somewhere. Can't find it again, sadly! :( But I painted this with watercolor and edited stuff in photoshop.

Illustration Midterm Portfolio 10/10/12

Midterm Portfolio Illustration

1. TWO line art illustrations.

2. TWO water colors from the 10-a-days.

3. TWO line art with watercolors

4. Digital file. (Previously done with gouache)

5. Facebook Profile

6. Product Illustration

7. Something random. 20x30 Illustration with water color.

Reflection

Honestly, I haven't loved doing a class's work as much as I've enjoyed this class. Most of my anxieties I've discussed with you, but I'll document them anyways. I don't feel like I'm good enough to be in this major. I thought I would be better than this, honestly. I want to have the talent to do this, and I will definitely keep trying. I just want to earn something other than a B in an art class. Not only for scholarship reasons, but also just because I want to be able to say I've earned an A in my major. Feelings of inadequacy strike again. I've gotten to loosen up a little bit as I have created other pieces. I fluctuate for sure though, I get all loosened up and fling the brush wherever and let the paint go wherever and then I tighten right back up again when I mess up a painting. But I avoided lifting the paint....not sure why? The stingy aspect of me thinking to myself "I'm wasting paint!" possibly?

I think I'm progressing a lot though. I know a lot of people started at where I'm at now, but I am happy with what i've put out so far, personally. Not so happy in comparison to everyone else. But happy in comparison to myself. I love the Coco Chanel bottle. I think it's cute, and very me. I love the pale pink colors. It was a bit more saturated in the actual photo. Most of these were. OH! I HATED the digital. I sucked at the digital. It was really hard to get it right. I worked on it on and off for like 8 hours. T'was hard. But you know what? I TURNED IT ALL IN! And I'm checking out for the night. My boyfriend brought over Sour Cream and Onion chips and we're watching some '90's chick flicks. We're enjoying ourselves and I'm done with the midterm! 

Cheers! :)

Enjoy your break. Sorry you got paperwork to do. :(

PS I will hug you like this sloth is hugging this little girl if you grade nicely :) Or I promise to not hug you like this sloth if you don't want me to.

Approved on the SECOND DAY! :)

It's on it's side. But it's ok. I promise. I got this OK'd on the second try! I don't know if I posted that or not. But yeah. Here it is! :)

Pink! Cuz I'm a giiiiirrrrlll.

So here's a nail polish. :) 

You said you "liked" it, but I just need to add in a darker color around the edge. YAY! :)

Hello, My Name is Audra and I'm a Fussbutt.

You called me a fussbutt! Well, here's my teddy bear. I enjoyed doing this in class!

Line First then Color First

Ink First

(Phineas and Ferb)

Ink First:

(Agent P and Perry the Platypus)

Ink First:

Water Color First:

Water Color First:

(The bottom is the Blues Clues Chair!)

Ink First:

Ink First:

People! Plus a half a person with a landscape.

Baptism...in the water. Cuz that's where they happen. Yeah.

See the tiny little half a person there in the back?? He's there.

Ballerina! I like drawing action pictures. Not faces.

Couple walking away from the camera.

Guy hitting the volley ball. Cuz that's what you do in volley ball.

Half Finished. I hate doing noses. I just don't do them well. I kinda skipped over these two people.

His ball fell in the water.

More Approval...I live for it.

First time around: 

BAAAAAD IDEA.

Second Time around I had to alter it a bit, but I GOT IT APPROVED.

(One day after the INTENDED DEADLINE!)

Meh.

I didn't even put these out because I don't like them. Sorry, Rusty.

This was approved (ON TIME!)

Landscapes!

Object Painting

What up? Okay so here's my first watercolors. I loved the birds and the fish. Check it out! :) I missed Wednesday, but here are these!

My favorites:

Aaaaannndddd....end favorites.